I already mentioned that 5 nov was an important day. But today ended up being the day I found out. Nej. Nada. NO. Chris Cross will not get a 4-year research position. I get to continue along a path of uncertainty hoping that the next application will work. I have been doing this for over 2 years now. Enough is enough.

In a 'dagens idiot' moment last Friday I signed up for Öppet Spår which is going to kill me. But now it looks like that may be the last thing I do in Sweden before leaving. I have felt completely drained today...the kind of numb feeling you might get if you decided to ride Finnmarksturen 3 times in the same day. I thought that this time would be different and this time they would understand what I was doing and think it was worthy. Obviously not. Well, I can take my brain to another country.

The problem is that I like it here. So any tips on some sort of job that might suit me would be appreciated at hejchris2 @ gmail . com. I also can proofread things, write in English and give lectures. My company is already set up in case today came.

Hopefully I can stay in Sweden and continue writing about my cycling adventures. But it's not looking to great...